Bliss may not be the exact right word, but anyway...Today is our 7th wedding anniversary and we are looking backward and forward at the same time. It's always a good reminder of where we have come from and always exciting to think of where we will be in another year. All in all, I have a pretty great guy, a super great guy.
If there is a day to celebrate your husband, then your anniversary is probably the day, so here goes:
Michael,
It has been a great honor to be your wife these 7 years. You are not perfect, but you are perfect for me. I love you more and more all the time. I am thankful for your laugh, your encouragement, your hard work, your humility, your friendship. I am thankful that you are kind-hearted, quiet, strong, and hansome, so hansome...wink, wink. I am thankful that you chose me. I am thankful, even for your shortcomings, because it is in those that I have learned the most about myself and my God. You are my best friend and my favorite daddy. Thank you for being you and for loving me!
Your loving wife,
Amanda
I wonder what God's going to do next!
It is finished!
They are officially Kashuba's! The adoption part is finished, but the parenting part will continue for the rest of our lives. I will never be able to fully explain what it felt like to walk out of that courtroom today and complete this crazy journey. From the first conversation I had with my friend Ashley over 4 years ago to going to court today...we had no idea what we were getting into. When I spoke with my friend Ashley 4 years ago, she and her husband were in the final stages of becoming licensed to get their kids. I remember thinking how amazing she was and how happy I was for her new family. Little did I know that just 4 years later I would be following in her foot steps. God planted a seed that day, a tiny speck of a seed and then he continued to water it, tend to it, pull out the weeds and see that it was grown into what is now our beautiful family. Ashley and her husband were there today at court. I thought that was fitting considering they were the ones who started it all!
I am reminded today of so many prayers...pouring my heart out to the Lord. I remember the first time I prayed for my kids. I did not know their names or ages or how many of them there would be, but I prayed for them right where they were and sobbed at the thought that they needed their momma and for some reason God knew it would be better for them to take the long route getting to us. I struggle to find the words to explain what I know to be true about God. Some things don't make sense...or at least I can't explain them. All I know is how I feel and what God has revealed to me. I do feel sad that I did not get to have my kids from day 1, but I know that God's amazing plan is being revealed all the time in my life and in the life of my kids. I am honored to know Him just a little. I am honored to be the mother of my 3 precious little ones. None of us our perfect, not one, and this world is a scary place, but our God is beautiful and just and holy and perfect. He takes risks. He does not fit in our minds or in any box. He is adventurous and life with Him is a wild ride...one that I am glad to be on.
Oh God, you are my God and I will ever praise you! We ask for your wisdom this day and every day after to be the kind of parents you want us to be. This is all in service to you. Help us to keep the faith.
amanda
I am reminded today of so many prayers...pouring my heart out to the Lord. I remember the first time I prayed for my kids. I did not know their names or ages or how many of them there would be, but I prayed for them right where they were and sobbed at the thought that they needed their momma and for some reason God knew it would be better for them to take the long route getting to us. I struggle to find the words to explain what I know to be true about God. Some things don't make sense...or at least I can't explain them. All I know is how I feel and what God has revealed to me. I do feel sad that I did not get to have my kids from day 1, but I know that God's amazing plan is being revealed all the time in my life and in the life of my kids. I am honored to know Him just a little. I am honored to be the mother of my 3 precious little ones. None of us our perfect, not one, and this world is a scary place, but our God is beautiful and just and holy and perfect. He takes risks. He does not fit in our minds or in any box. He is adventurous and life with Him is a wild ride...one that I am glad to be on.
Oh God, you are my God and I will ever praise you! We ask for your wisdom this day and every day after to be the kind of parents you want us to be. This is all in service to you. Help us to keep the faith.
amanda
Gathering my thoughts
The best part about Tuesday afternoons is nap time. The little ones and I come home, eat lunch, and then they both lay down for some needed rest after their big morning at church. When the kids go down, mommy gets to do whatever she wants for about an hour and a half, usually. I am trying to be disciplined to do more than just chores during nap time. There are plenty of chores that could take up my whole break if I let them. At least half of the time I try to devote to reading, writing, watching t.v., or just sitting quietly and staring---which is actually one of my very favorite things to do.
Today, I read some of my old blog posts and stared at the wall. I find that my thoughts get so overloaded in my brain these days because I do not have as much time to process as I used to have. It's like the only cure for an overloaded brain is sitting and staring for a while....just organizing and filing my thoughts away. If my brain was a desk it would be completely crazy with piles all over and no filing system...no need for jokes about my actual desk right now---that's just too easy.
My physical body has caught up to all of the extra work that comes with having 3 kids. Now, I am just waiting for my brain to catch up.
Amanda
Today, I read some of my old blog posts and stared at the wall. I find that my thoughts get so overloaded in my brain these days because I do not have as much time to process as I used to have. It's like the only cure for an overloaded brain is sitting and staring for a while....just organizing and filing my thoughts away. If my brain was a desk it would be completely crazy with piles all over and no filing system...no need for jokes about my actual desk right now---that's just too easy.
My physical body has caught up to all of the extra work that comes with having 3 kids. Now, I am just waiting for my brain to catch up.
Amanda
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